An Ode to Pain

Dear Pain,

I just wanted to thank you. Coz you’ve done so much for me. So much that sometimes it seems tragic to my cold eyes. These tears are a living testament to that. I know you have a special liking for me. Well I like you too. That is why we are always together. You have always been there for me. You were there when I was a little kid. You were there when I was a messed up druggie teenager. And you are still there as I start my practical life. I know you’ll be there even when I’m on my deathbed. You stood by me when everyone else left. You noticed when no one else knew that I existed. I wish I could just rip open my heart for the world to see how much you dwell in it. How much space you occupy in this bleeding pump!

Everything reminds me of you. I can feel you humming along each time I’m singing. You are ringing with each and every strum. I don’t expect others to know about us. How close we are. Its a secret affair. The world will never understand and its not supposed to.

Oh and I also wanted to apologize. I have always been so rude to you. You knocked at my door and I always tried to avoid you. I’m very sorry for my behavior. I truly am. From this day onwards, I promise that I’ll embrace you with open arms. I’ll love you like you love me. I’ll never leave your side like you’ve never left mine. I’ll always keep the door open for you. Til my very last breath! And thats a promise!!!

Yours Truly

Accursed Thinker

Streamlining Your Life

Dude! Its not a process flow that you can define in terms of steps and diagrams. Its your damn life. But you still want to systemize and streamline it. So you exactly know what to do, where to go next and probably you don’t ever want to be lost for words. Don’t we all hate confusion and uncertainty, heh? Well I know one thing for sure; you are frustrated over a certain turn of events. If you weren’t, you wouldn’t read this. Maybe you are frustrated over the lack of control that you have over your life. But do not worry. Guess what! its your lucky day coz we'll cure all your pains. We'll take out your brain, clean it and put it back in its place. Yes sir, we'll do it for free.

So anyways I’ll share with you my personal failures at streamlining and controlling my life. This might feed your sadist soul and make you happy. If it doesn’t, you probably need to watch a few videos of hunger and famine. Just kidding =P

When I started my first job, I planned to do a lot of things. I made a schedule for myself. The schedule would ensure that I don’t become a workaholic. It would give me ample time to do all the things that I love to do. I was also supposed to join a gym, store my refrigerator with healthy food, veggies, get an internet connection, get a new set of strings for my guitar and resume blogging… And guess what I couldn’t do a single one of these things. NOT A SINGLE DAMN THING =(

Then… I realized…. *Huge Mega Realization Dawns on Me* =O

You see, for something as impulse as life, any set of rules is likely to become obsolete as soon as it is created. So stop stuffing your head with all the things that you want to do. Just flow with the flow. Free fall for a little while and patterns will emerge. Colors will realign themselves to form a picture. It will be a fine painting, Trust me! With the perfect mix of abstraction, pain, happiness, madness and mediocrity, its going to be a perfect life for you and me. And don’t worry its in unlimited supply. =D

So Live on my enemy!!! And yes there is probably one thing I’ll manage to do from now on, that is Blogging =P I hope So =/ So read on as well =P