Throughout the course of our lives, we meet countless people. Most we forget. Some we remember. But I believe there must be this one person in your life that you have met and you will never forget.
So one fine day that person comes in your life. You can feel it. It’s a very special moment. Perhaps its the most special moment of your life. The chemistry develops and an amazing new chapter opens up in your life. You are flowing with the flow. You are free falling. It is the most exciting time of your life. You get so lost in it that you tend to forget the bitter realities of life, your worries, your problems and your depression. You even tend to forget that you can’t get it all; A simple truth of this life that you ought to familiarize yourself with and remind yourself of, frequently. But you don’t want to think about it. Ignorant Fool!!!
You cherish and enshrine each and every memory with that person. You try to save each and every moment. Pictures, emails, messages, cards, gifts, things, songs, everything you save and protect like crazy. You have become crazy. You are mad. You are obsessed. That obsession only grows with time. You don’t know that you have fallen so deep that you’ll never be able to come to the surface. Perhaps you’ll come to the surface but you won’t be able to walk. You’ll pretend you are walking but actually you are not. You are dragging and lingering.
Time goes on and one day that person is not there. Gone forever. You can’t believe it. You keep staring your phone. You check your email after every 10 minutes. You want communication. You want it badly. You want it all back. You wait and wait and wait… You have regrets, pain, hopelessness; you want to go back in time. Fix things. But time is a one way ride, only goes forward. The memories that you once cherished, haunt you now. You see them running in your mind like a Polycolor film. You know life will never be the same again. That one person is irreplaceable. You go even crazier. Nothing comforts you. You are dying from inside. The sky seems scarlet red and even the brightest of days seem dark to you. Because that one person is not there.
With regrets and sadness you live your life. Sad and crazy you will remain… Forever
To be continued…
Yes,it's true ... but there need not to be just one person
ReplyDeleteStaright from the heart...Very intense! *shudders*....I hope everything is alright!
ReplyDeletethank you so much Taha, innocent and Nini for your comments... please keep on reading =)
ReplyDeleteLove relationships are only just a 'part' of a person's life...integral nevertheless, but its never the 'whole' life...this should be kept in mind always. One's life should not revolve only around that one person.
ReplyDeleteVery nicely expressed articles...way to go!
Cheers!
It so looks like a broken heart’s woes towards life. A Post Break-up Syndrome article!!
ReplyDeleteZohaib! One thing I’ve learnt from life is, again a lyric, “Nothing lasts forever. And we both know hearts can change.” It’s all about a brainwave and the sooner it comes, the earlier people change! At times its not people who change, but the things and situation at macro level change, trickling down to changes and sadness at micro level.
Remember the days when I’d call you and try to explain for hours that it’s so unbelievable how people so close to you, can go so far away in just a matter of few days. You keep living next door, but you don’t look at each other, you don’t talk, you don’t text, rather you try to run away from any coincidental encounter. You stay silent at all the hurt when you see the person next door throwing away all your presents, laughing around while you sit back and cry, never realizing how hard things are for the other person.
That’s how life is. People have reasons. People have justifications. Things that are never communicated. You ought not control them. You ought not ask them. You can only say yes. Or giving in to the harsh realities of life stays your only option.
After all these times, with all this hurt, a part of you dies with every person leaving your life. You keep molding into someone new, someone different, someone quite sensitive but indifferent at the same time, someone irritable. Even suicidal at times!!
Somehow I think your Post 1 should have been a sequel to this post. Insomnia, depression, vagueness about life, doubts about yourself, regrets, all result from what you’ve posted now.
But whatsoever, it’s life. Lets never forget these people who couldn’t make it to our present, let alone future. Let’s keep loving them. Let’s sing to them.
Time has bridled us both. But I remember you too! =)
@Taj.. Well I know what you are trying to say Taj, but this post is about a situation where you do make somebody your life... and a relationship is not just a relationship but its something way more than that... Its your madness, your obsession... =)
ReplyDelete@Areej.. thank you for your comments dude... but I disagree with you that my first post should be a sequel to this one..
Firstly my first post is not about insomnia or depression or anything of the sort... its about finding answers. I don't have insomnia.. its just that i can't sleep at night sometimes and similarly i'm not a depressed person... its just that sometimes I can't understand life... And I have had this confusion since I was a little kid so I won't say its a result of what I have posted in this article =)
And 2ndly your interpretation of the article is justified under your circumstances.. but everyone has a different way of thinking about and defining reality...
anyways thank you for your perspective =)