Pretention

Why pretend to be happy when one can be sad and honest?

Why can't I just enjoy the pain in my life and be open about it without being judged?

You!!!.

Yes YOU!!! Don't you feel any pain? Have you never been broken? Are you not... human?

Yet you can't go to the next line without feeling pity and disgust for the one who writes! You judgemental fool. Look inside you! What do you see but darkness and misery? What do you feel but pain and sorrow?

Take a fucking gun, put it in your mouth and pull the trigger or cut a vein or two for all I care but be strong enough to face the truth within you. We live in a fucked up world and you are as much a part of it as I am. So live not to judge. Instead live to rejoice the fuckedupness of our existence. Live to embrace the absolute pointlessness of it.

And you shall live fully.

A Dialgoue

Jackalovich is a youth in his mid-twenties who is full of questions and curiosity about life. He goes to visit his master Provoski who is the Makeesay of his time.

“Greetings Master” Jackalovich gestured his hand in some kind of salutation “How fare you?”

“I am well, like always. What brings you here child?”

“I am in pain. I want peace”

“Define ‘Peace’!!” the master replied in a laid back tone.

“Well peace is when I’m free of pain”

“And?”

“And that’s it I guess”

“Are you not free of pain when you are happy?”

“I am master”

“So is it happiness you want?”

“Well yes if you put it that way.”

“But hear me well child, for happiness is not peace”

“What is peace than?”

“Peace is a lack of everything but itself i.e. when there is no happiness, emotion, energy, sadness or anything at all, there is peace” the master took a sip from the cup of wine on the table and continued “You see the pure life energy exists in equilibrium and tranquility. Every now and then the life energy transcends into the material world in the form of a living being. After we die, we go back to the life energy from which we are born, and thus can be in peace. But this life is not meant for peace. There is no equilibrium here. Only struggle and pain”

“That means there is no point in longing for peace?” Jackalovich asked, obviously a little disappointed by the lecture his master had given him.

“That is not entirely true. We should long for many things and also strive to achieve them. But instead of wanting freedom from your pain, you should embrace it, make it your strength. And remember that Ultimate Peace is our final destination. So for as long you are in this world, enjoy the pain a little.”

Jackalovich nodded in silence and left the temple. He had his answer but many more questions still remained.